+`.me.myself&i.`+
x.-`[ joanna ]`-.x
+ .15 yrs' old
+ .born on 31o7`89
+ .ex rosythian
+ .peicaian :sec 3i`o4
+ .flautist in the band
+`.Linkages.`+
_past blog_
_pcss band site_
audris.
beautrice
baoman
carolyn
cristabel
daphne
deex
eeting
emma
guangyi
hiangSuan
huimei
irwin
jasss
jess
joanne
justin
kelly
lisi
mandl
qiujin
ruey
sandra
shaun
steph
ting
wanling
weihsin
weihsin2
wendy
yeeping
yun
ziyang
+`.voicing out.`+
my budd. i won't forget for e present and future >.<
you will always for me till the end of time,
you are always my dearest budd. ]]
is one you can sit on a porch with and not say a word,
then get up and feel like that was the best conversation you've ever had. ]]
for friendship doesn't count by miles,but only by the heart (: ]]
bound together with e love of god. ]]
that's how long i want to be your friend. ]]
when everyone single one walks away. ]]
i don't think you understand how much you all mean to me,
i treasure e tears,laughter
but most importantly,
the memories. ]]
Wednesday, December 22 [9:47 AM]
no more sorriess. no more love story.
feelings come and go..
on 26th of August,you turned back..
i chose to believe and trust you again,
but again..
20th of Dec,you left me again.
this time,it's for another girl.
your sorries doesn't help to heal the wound in my heart
but it makes it hurt more.
i won't blame you. really,cause i know love is something that cannot be forced.
but i will keep..
the picture we've taken together,
the letters you've given me,
the teddy bear,
and also all the memories we've once sharedd..
btw,i wouldn't be blogging anymore.
the blog will be closed down,
i won't blog anymore.
but the website will be still on..
for all my memories..
i don't need you to turn back,
i don't need you to feel bad/guilty,
i don't need your sympathy..
from this moment onwards,
i won't shed a single tear for him anymore
i won't love him anymore.
last of all,byeexx.
feelings come and go..
on 26th of August,you turned back..
i chose to believe and trust you again,
but again..
20th of Dec,you left me again.
this time,it's for another girl.
your sorries doesn't help to heal the wound in my heart
but it makes it hurt more.
i won't blame you. really,cause i know love is something that cannot be forced.
but i will keep..
the picture we've taken together,
the letters you've given me,
the teddy bear,
and also all the memories we've once sharedd..
btw,i wouldn't be blogging anymore.
the blog will be closed down,
i won't blog anymore.
but the website will be still on..
for all my memories..
i don't need you to turn back,
i don't need you to feel bad/guilty,
i don't need your sympathy..
from this moment onwards,
i won't shed a single tear for him anymore
i won't love him anymore.
last of all,byeexx.
Saturday, December 11 [10:37 AM]
finally i can blog,waited for one hour plus.
i'm back (:
i've decided to change. so pardon me for what i've done for the past.`
so many times happened for the last two weeks. band practices on every thursday and friday,i'm going crazyy over mengshan. getting really stressed about her nowadays,so many problems surfaced. how am i going to cope with her when school reopen? now,i have to teach her everything again. how i wished i can give her up~ and my burden will be lessen,then i can concentrate on my playing. i really want to do well for singapore rhapsody and westridge overture,especially on my high notes and my solo. wonder whether sir will let me play solo alone,maybe i can't cope with it because i'll be having stage fright.
school's reopening soon,my homeworks aren't completed yet. still left with amaths,english and chinese. =\ got a shock of my life when yongkiat told me that my amaths teacher is changed to ms lee,the softball teacher. -sighs- i hate that new education system where we get our results in december and school starts in march. it's gonna be very rush,and we would not be able to relax ourself as much as the current sec 4s. and also that five- day week,school ends at 3 everyday and starts at normal time.` wtf. and how much time will we be left with for the rest of the day? still have to cope with studies,friends and also cca.
i've been meeting junxing very little now. -sighs- i miss him alot alot ):
deex daddy,been losing contact with her already. [[ daddy,i msg you never reply me ]]
yun mommy,alot of things happened to ya recently right? when you see this,msg me at my new number kaes. get it from daddy or hsin kaes? (:
justin di,happy belated birthday!. your prezzie will arrive soon.
budd, really fortunate having such a buddy beside me.
youjun,thanks for cheering me up.
wuya,you ps me!.
jess,stay strong. there's still alot of nice guys on the street,there's sure someone who will fit your bill.
bel,you're engaged now.
geex,i'm addicted to calling pple's chinese name now.
countdown : 3 weeks (:
btw,i won't be blogging often now. or maybe i'll close down this blog,i want to keep everything to myself. don't worry budd,i'm not getting zi bi`- hehes. takkaire. i told you i wanna change, (:
byex. junxing, iLu. muackxx.-
i'm back (:
i've decided to change. so pardon me for what i've done for the past.`
so many times happened for the last two weeks. band practices on every thursday and friday,i'm going crazyy over mengshan. getting really stressed about her nowadays,so many problems surfaced. how am i going to cope with her when school reopen? now,i have to teach her everything again. how i wished i can give her up~ and my burden will be lessen,then i can concentrate on my playing. i really want to do well for singapore rhapsody and westridge overture,especially on my high notes and my solo. wonder whether sir will let me play solo alone,maybe i can't cope with it because i'll be having stage fright.
school's reopening soon,my homeworks aren't completed yet. still left with amaths,english and chinese. =\ got a shock of my life when yongkiat told me that my amaths teacher is changed to ms lee,the softball teacher. -sighs- i hate that new education system where we get our results in december and school starts in march. it's gonna be very rush,and we would not be able to relax ourself as much as the current sec 4s. and also that five- day week,school ends at 3 everyday and starts at normal time.` wtf. and how much time will we be left with for the rest of the day? still have to cope with studies,friends and also cca.
i've been meeting junxing very little now. -sighs- i miss him alot alot ):
deex daddy,been losing contact with her already. [[ daddy,i msg you never reply me ]]
yun mommy,alot of things happened to ya recently right? when you see this,msg me at my new number kaes. get it from daddy or hsin kaes? (:
justin di,happy belated birthday!. your prezzie will arrive soon.
budd, really fortunate having such a buddy beside me.
youjun,thanks for cheering me up.
wuya,you ps me!.
jess,stay strong. there's still alot of nice guys on the street,there's sure someone who will fit your bill.
bel,you're engaged now.
geex,i'm addicted to calling pple's chinese name now.
countdown : 3 weeks (:
btw,i won't be blogging often now. or maybe i'll close down this blog,i want to keep everything to myself. don't worry budd,i'm not getting zi bi`- hehes. takkaire. i told you i wanna change, (:
byex. junxing, iLu. muackxx.-
Saturday, November 27 [10:42 AM]
blogger is ok now (:
hasn't been able to update for the past few days and also rather lazy to blog for the past week.
let me think abt things that are worth remembering for the past week,
- 16th : class chalet
- 17th : still at chalet
- 19th : nco camp pop
- 21st : dunno what clean day at mountbatten
- 25th : music exchange with bukit view
- 26th : my third month with deariee.
I'm gonna be straight with my words now,the teachers may be visiting our blogs every now and then. But perhaps it may be a good thing,cause we need not tell them face to face to let them know how we feel abt school life. After all,a blog is used for writing what you feel. It doesn't matter who reads it and has any comments`-
16th - tuesday, 17th - wednesday
Ermm,the class chalet was fun. lolss. met up with ting at central to buy our chalet things,then waited for the rest of them to arrive at mac. sat there for quite sometime,and then they slowly arrive. we left mac at ard 1plus. we all took cabs down to downtown east pasir ris,qirui's sister bf helped us to sign in` we unpacked our things and nick they all started playing cards. me+nianshun had afternoon nap there,then we had sianrui's beehoon and fried rice for dinnerr. watched the champions final episode there,while ting+jb+nick+ck were playing mahjong outside the chalet. during midnight,we went to the park nearby,it's so damn scary and spooky. I was totally freaked out,when sianrui they all wanted to go to the redhouse there. I don't wanna go,so i went to fetch qirui they all,then later accompanied them to redhouse there,and i was stucked outside the redhouse,ting and jb accompanied me. lolss. i nv want to step inside there!. btw,i also lost my simcard there ): sadden,lost among the grasses there and there isn't any way to find it cause it's pitched dark. went back to chalet ard 4plus and we slept there. jb woke me up at 7plus,when he was bullying ting.` then me and ting went to bathe,ting has rashed all over her body. we took her to white sands to see a doctor and the doctor gave her a jab on her butt -.- lolss. called my mom too,to cancel my line and also to report loss. had bbq at night,saw richie papa there and he treat us drinkss. desmond's father sent me home after that, i was bombarded with lotsa questions!. =\ was totally exhausted when i got homee.
19th - friday
had band that day. sectional practicess,mine was the last slot and i had to wait till 3pm. after that,me+hsin have to lock the music room and tidy things for ms chan and we rushed home. dearie sent me home,hehes. (: then i changed my clothes and i took the wrong bus so i was late!. lolss. sir sent us there,and i had to put the box on my lap which is damn heavy. pop was all right,and i saw my favourite band,tanjong katong display band. yeahhss. sat with ms lee they all,watched the whole parade. after that,me and jess went to disturb bel and i saw dionna standing behind bel. woahss. waited agn for bel to change her clothes and we went down to toa payoh to celebrate adzrul's birthday`we treated him pizza hut (: hehes. after that,we took a bus home. lolsss.
21st - sunday
daddie pulled me down to mountbatten there to attend what clean green day de. saw mr gok there,and was pushed by alot of pple cause i was standing near mr gok. -.- idiott. then budd was supposed to come down to help his friends but in the end,he ps him cause he had a job interview.`- i made him call me and chat,cause daddie ps me and walked ard with his friends. so i was alonee there,so damn boredd ): lolss. then daddie took me home ard 10plus and we got lunch at serangoon gardens. the rest of day,was all righttt. i was busy with my sims2 =x
25th - thursday
we had music exchange with bukit view that day,dearie accompanied me to school. i reached there quite early to prepare all our stuffss. took a bus ride there,which is damn long. reached there,we combined practice with them. it's seems like normal practice -.- then we had sectionals with the tutor there,that tutor was horrible. eeekkks. she taught us nothing special,she just taught us hw to play this part and so on. totally different from sir,at least sir would analysize the score with us and made us understand why this part has to be played this way and so on..` and i actually didn't learn anything there,the flute players were ok. i didn't learn anything from them and they didn't learn anything from me. lolss. i was like guiding them throughout the singapore rhapsody cause' they weren't familar with the song. so basically,it wasn't quite a fun experience. =\ went to mac with huimei and jess,and i was told that ms chan they all were deciding whether to hire ms leong as our tutor,blehsss. i'm strongly against it!!!.- =\
26th - friday
had the most exhausting practice i've ever had!. sir "tortured" me,but somehow choonwei was there to help me with some parts of the song. sir kept pushing me to take in more air and play louder. and my stomach was awfully pain with all those crampss.`- then i was like half died. ): slept for a while during practice. lolss. me and jolene had to learn to be independent,so both of us had to depend on one anotherrr. btw,we played singapore rhapsody and westridge overture for the entire day. the pressure i'm having now is increasing,how i wished choonwei could come back and help me. at least i won't fee so lonely and pressurised. haishx. after band,went home with bel they all. and saw choonwei at interchange,lolss. he left earlier than us. chatted with him for quite sometime and we left.
this day was also me and dearr de third month. i msged him at 12 then i went to sleep,then he called at 12.42 lidat. i picked up the phone and i forgot what i told him. i only rmbed the part when he asked me to go slp,lolss. then i said ok and i put down. i woke up ard 6plus when jess gave me morning call.` i checked my call records and i saw his number,i tout it was a dream at firsttt. blehsss.` lolss. i asked jun to help me ask him to call me at night,and i asked him..then he said i didn't say anything. lolss. chatted with him for a while and put down lerrss.
ermx,i have to tidy my room later and also do some studying. hmmss,left with only one month of holiday. and after that,i gonna go thru hell next yr. 2oo5.- no matter how tough it is,i hope i can pull it thru and believe that i will pass in no time (:
lolss. i'm addicted to sims2 lers!. (:
hasn't been able to update for the past few days and also rather lazy to blog for the past week.
let me think abt things that are worth remembering for the past week,
- 16th : class chalet
- 17th : still at chalet
- 19th : nco camp pop
- 21st : dunno what clean day at mountbatten
- 25th : music exchange with bukit view
- 26th : my third month with deariee.
I'm gonna be straight with my words now,the teachers may be visiting our blogs every now and then. But perhaps it may be a good thing,cause we need not tell them face to face to let them know how we feel abt school life. After all,a blog is used for writing what you feel. It doesn't matter who reads it and has any comments`-
16th - tuesday, 17th - wednesday
Ermm,the class chalet was fun. lolss. met up with ting at central to buy our chalet things,then waited for the rest of them to arrive at mac. sat there for quite sometime,and then they slowly arrive. we left mac at ard 1plus. we all took cabs down to downtown east pasir ris,qirui's sister bf helped us to sign in` we unpacked our things and nick they all started playing cards. me+nianshun had afternoon nap there,then we had sianrui's beehoon and fried rice for dinnerr. watched the champions final episode there,while ting+jb+nick+ck were playing mahjong outside the chalet. during midnight,we went to the park nearby,it's so damn scary and spooky. I was totally freaked out,when sianrui they all wanted to go to the redhouse there. I don't wanna go,so i went to fetch qirui they all,then later accompanied them to redhouse there,and i was stucked outside the redhouse,ting and jb accompanied me. lolss. i nv want to step inside there!. btw,i also lost my simcard there ): sadden,lost among the grasses there and there isn't any way to find it cause it's pitched dark. went back to chalet ard 4plus and we slept there. jb woke me up at 7plus,when he was bullying ting.` then me and ting went to bathe,ting has rashed all over her body. we took her to white sands to see a doctor and the doctor gave her a jab on her butt -.- lolss. called my mom too,to cancel my line and also to report loss. had bbq at night,saw richie papa there and he treat us drinkss. desmond's father sent me home after that, i was bombarded with lotsa questions!. =\ was totally exhausted when i got homee.
19th - friday
had band that day. sectional practicess,mine was the last slot and i had to wait till 3pm. after that,me+hsin have to lock the music room and tidy things for ms chan and we rushed home. dearie sent me home,hehes. (: then i changed my clothes and i took the wrong bus so i was late!. lolss. sir sent us there,and i had to put the box on my lap which is damn heavy. pop was all right,and i saw my favourite band,tanjong katong display band. yeahhss. sat with ms lee they all,watched the whole parade. after that,me and jess went to disturb bel and i saw dionna standing behind bel. woahss. waited agn for bel to change her clothes and we went down to toa payoh to celebrate adzrul's birthday`we treated him pizza hut (: hehes. after that,we took a bus home. lolsss.
21st - sunday
daddie pulled me down to mountbatten there to attend what clean green day de. saw mr gok there,and was pushed by alot of pple cause i was standing near mr gok. -.- idiott. then budd was supposed to come down to help his friends but in the end,he ps him cause he had a job interview.`- i made him call me and chat,cause daddie ps me and walked ard with his friends. so i was alonee there,so damn boredd ): lolss. then daddie took me home ard 10plus and we got lunch at serangoon gardens. the rest of day,was all righttt. i was busy with my sims2 =x
25th - thursday
we had music exchange with bukit view that day,dearie accompanied me to school. i reached there quite early to prepare all our stuffss. took a bus ride there,which is damn long. reached there,we combined practice with them. it's seems like normal practice -.- then we had sectionals with the tutor there,that tutor was horrible. eeekkks. she taught us nothing special,she just taught us hw to play this part and so on. totally different from sir,at least sir would analysize the score with us and made us understand why this part has to be played this way and so on..` and i actually didn't learn anything there,the flute players were ok. i didn't learn anything from them and they didn't learn anything from me. lolss. i was like guiding them throughout the singapore rhapsody cause' they weren't familar with the song. so basically,it wasn't quite a fun experience. =\ went to mac with huimei and jess,and i was told that ms chan they all were deciding whether to hire ms leong as our tutor,blehsss. i'm strongly against it!!!.- =\
26th - friday
had the most exhausting practice i've ever had!. sir "tortured" me,but somehow choonwei was there to help me with some parts of the song. sir kept pushing me to take in more air and play louder. and my stomach was awfully pain with all those crampss.`- then i was like half died. ): slept for a while during practice. lolss. me and jolene had to learn to be independent,so both of us had to depend on one anotherrr. btw,we played singapore rhapsody and westridge overture for the entire day. the pressure i'm having now is increasing,how i wished choonwei could come back and help me. at least i won't fee so lonely and pressurised. haishx. after band,went home with bel they all. and saw choonwei at interchange,lolss. he left earlier than us. chatted with him for quite sometime and we left.
this day was also me and dearr de third month. i msged him at 12 then i went to sleep,then he called at 12.42 lidat. i picked up the phone and i forgot what i told him. i only rmbed the part when he asked me to go slp,lolss. then i said ok and i put down. i woke up ard 6plus when jess gave me morning call.` i checked my call records and i saw his number,i tout it was a dream at firsttt. blehsss.` lolss. i asked jun to help me ask him to call me at night,and i asked him..then he said i didn't say anything. lolss. chatted with him for a while and put down lerrss.
ermx,i have to tidy my room later and also do some studying. hmmss,left with only one month of holiday. and after that,i gonna go thru hell next yr. 2oo5.- no matter how tough it is,i hope i can pull it thru and believe that i will pass in no time (:
lolss. i'm addicted to sims2 lers!. (:
Monday, November 15 [1:51 AM]
i hate my msn. it keeps me so much problems!
geex. my sims 2 cd is arriving in abt 13 hrs time (:
let me think how did i spent my past two days`
saturday was all ryte,i guess so. went over to jasss hse to discuss abt 2f'o3 class chalet thingy. still haven asked for permission to stay overnight there =\ hmms. i miss all my classmates,i had such a chaotic + hectic 2oo4. how i wished i cld turn back time..~ back to the afternoon,nick + edwin bought tou hua and tou nai for teabreak (: hehes,nick's scar is so damn scary. left ard 6plus,when kor called ting's hp. lolss. kor called jess + steph to ask where i am. then jess and bel got worried` actually there wasn't any reception at jasss hse so daddie and kor couldn't reach me =\ had dinner with my family and so on..
sunday,woke up at ard 10plus. had my breakfast and do my maths,but then stopped a while later and then i slacked (: till afternoon,a man came to fix our scv box and he changed the box and remotess. lolss. my hamsters are so pathetic,haish. they fought till so badly and one of them was badly injured. my heart ached when i saw the wounds and dried blood on its head. haishx. watched ghost for sales with kor,then later daddie came back ): so we stopped halfway. had bbq chicken wings for dinner,so damn blardy full. daddie stuff me and kor with so much food. after dinner,we watched this show on channel 8. hehes,so damn funny. kor and jie said daddie brought us to the cinema and watched but i don't rmb a single thing not even the story line!.
was chatting with jun online till my msn keep signing in and out on it's own!.
fuck. idiot msn,now i can't chat with all my other friendss.!
all because of my brother's dloading movies,make the whole com and internet connection so laggy. -.-
damn kiasu lehs him!..
arghss. i miss my dearie. i really miss him alot alot alot!..
btw,i felt like sending a mail to her abt irwin's thingy. she thinks i'm e anonymous in her blog -.- i wun do it,even i want to scold her is also using my own name not anonymous.` i have the right to scold her ryte..? for sending such a msg. haishss. things are over isn't it?. hope dearie keeps his promise.
2 weeks of holidays passed just like that,left with 6 weeks =\ i'm still left with lotsa undone work. geezzz.
sims2,i'm crazzy over it. blehss. band is also having music exchange on the 25/26. i'm gonna hate sir and bel for it. my third month anniversary is taken away by them!. ): thinking i can spend it with him,but i can't now.. -sighs-
daddie's out to nag at me and kor agn. byeeexxxx.
geex. my sims 2 cd is arriving in abt 13 hrs time (:
let me think how did i spent my past two days`
saturday was all ryte,i guess so. went over to jasss hse to discuss abt 2f'o3 class chalet thingy. still haven asked for permission to stay overnight there =\ hmms. i miss all my classmates,i had such a chaotic + hectic 2oo4. how i wished i cld turn back time..~ back to the afternoon,nick + edwin bought tou hua and tou nai for teabreak (: hehes,nick's scar is so damn scary. left ard 6plus,when kor called ting's hp. lolss. kor called jess + steph to ask where i am. then jess and bel got worried` actually there wasn't any reception at jasss hse so daddie and kor couldn't reach me =\ had dinner with my family and so on..
sunday,woke up at ard 10plus. had my breakfast and do my maths,but then stopped a while later and then i slacked (: till afternoon,a man came to fix our scv box and he changed the box and remotess. lolss. my hamsters are so pathetic,haish. they fought till so badly and one of them was badly injured. my heart ached when i saw the wounds and dried blood on its head. haishx. watched ghost for sales with kor,then later daddie came back ): so we stopped halfway. had bbq chicken wings for dinner,so damn blardy full. daddie stuff me and kor with so much food. after dinner,we watched this show on channel 8. hehes,so damn funny. kor and jie said daddie brought us to the cinema and watched but i don't rmb a single thing not even the story line!.
was chatting with jun online till my msn keep signing in and out on it's own!.
fuck. idiot msn,now i can't chat with all my other friendss.!
all because of my brother's dloading movies,make the whole com and internet connection so laggy. -.-
damn kiasu lehs him!..
arghss. i miss my dearie. i really miss him alot alot alot!..
btw,i felt like sending a mail to her abt irwin's thingy. she thinks i'm e anonymous in her blog -.- i wun do it,even i want to scold her is also using my own name not anonymous.` i have the right to scold her ryte..? for sending such a msg. haishss. things are over isn't it?. hope dearie keeps his promise.
2 weeks of holidays passed just like that,left with 6 weeks =\ i'm still left with lotsa undone work. geezzz.
sims2,i'm crazzy over it. blehss. band is also having music exchange on the 25/26. i'm gonna hate sir and bel for it. my third month anniversary is taken away by them!. ): thinking i can spend it with him,but i can't now.. -sighs-
daddie's out to nag at me and kor agn. byeeexxxx.
Saturday, November 13 [1:12 AM]
early morning (:
hsin now "flying" to shanghai. and she's gonna miss alot of things!. she's missing the champions' final episode,2f'o3 class chalet and lotsa fun.
Let me think..
I went for band today. yepps,walked to mac from my hse.,met choonwei there and we walked to school together. Reached there quite early,so me+choonwei played flute in the band store. tracy was there too,playing with choonwei's and mine tamagotchi =/ then later,we went back to music room to do our hwk. stupid amaths is confusing me alot alot. then later sir brought me+huimei our for lunch. Returned to music room,helped bel with the camp thingy. We started playing the set piece today,lolss. quite fun (: i wonder how mengshan is gonna make it..` i'm not gonna to spend another effort on her. i'm sick and tired of it. sir released the other sections early cause' he wanted to concentrate on e clarinet,but e few of us stayed to wait for bel. stayed till ard 6,we had alot of jokes. lolss.
tml's saturday. how am i gonna spend it? slack!!! (: lolss.
i miss my dearie,i can't msg him anymore. ): he stayed at jeeboon hse for e whole day. how can jeeboon betray cristabel!. =x lols.
daphne is out too. goshhh. blehss. =/ budd is getting sims2 cd on monday!!!. (: yeahss. i'm getting too excited abt it.
mandl and jess want to ton,i'm not tonning cause' i'm way too tired.
lolss. i watched both shark tale and princess diaries 2. yepps. both shows rock!. but i prefer princess diaries,they played the song canon in d (: and we saw mk in there too -.- lolss. shark tale,oscar is so lamee. and that lola,so materialistic!. >.<
i'm off to bed now. takkaire peeps.`
hsin now "flying" to shanghai. and she's gonna miss alot of things!. she's missing the champions' final episode,2f'o3 class chalet and lotsa fun.
Let me think..
I went for band today. yepps,walked to mac from my hse.,met choonwei there and we walked to school together. Reached there quite early,so me+choonwei played flute in the band store. tracy was there too,playing with choonwei's and mine tamagotchi =/ then later,we went back to music room to do our hwk. stupid amaths is confusing me alot alot. then later sir brought me+huimei our for lunch. Returned to music room,helped bel with the camp thingy. We started playing the set piece today,lolss. quite fun (: i wonder how mengshan is gonna make it..` i'm not gonna to spend another effort on her. i'm sick and tired of it. sir released the other sections early cause' he wanted to concentrate on e clarinet,but e few of us stayed to wait for bel. stayed till ard 6,we had alot of jokes. lolss.
tml's saturday. how am i gonna spend it? slack!!! (: lolss.
i miss my dearie,i can't msg him anymore. ): he stayed at jeeboon hse for e whole day. how can jeeboon betray cristabel!. =x lols.
daphne is out too. goshhh. blehss. =/ budd is getting sims2 cd on monday!!!. (: yeahss. i'm getting too excited abt it.
mandl and jess want to ton,i'm not tonning cause' i'm way too tired.
lolss. i watched both shark tale and princess diaries 2. yepps. both shows rock!. but i prefer princess diaries,they played the song canon in d (: and we saw mk in there too -.- lolss. shark tale,oscar is so lamee. and that lola,so materialistic!. >.<
i'm off to bed now. takkaire peeps.`
Thursday, November 11 [2:14 AM]
pan yun ("v") jun xing
Just edited blog,lotsa things missing. Peeps of my life, are they really my true friends? After all,i still left with nothin'.
Kor wanted me to pass this msg ard,or rather to those who know him.
There's this guy/girl has been posing as him in friendster,he/she stole his photos and placed it online. -.- His friendster name is Jordon,has lotsa of information abt kor. psycho` Btw if he adds you, better don't add him back.
kor's official friendster account is Jordon_legolas@hotmail.com. Add him if you want to.
I sort of had this big quarrel with hsin today,and my mood totally went down for the entire afternoon.
Dearie sent me home,he managed to cheer me up. But that matter can't get out of my mind,till then,i realised alot of things. alot alot of things. Perhaps it's a blessing in disguise? No more friends,No more sisters but only budd + dear+pigg ` Nobody understands me except for them..really none..How dissappointing it is? I'm such a failure.
Shall turn in anytime. Got to compose songs tml,and also another tuition..`
what's is e most impt element in a friendship/relationship?
basic trust.
Just edited blog,lotsa things missing. Peeps of my life, are they really my true friends? After all,i still left with nothin'.
Kor wanted me to pass this msg ard,or rather to those who know him.
There's this guy/girl has been posing as him in friendster,he/she stole his photos and placed it online. -.- His friendster name is Jordon,has lotsa of information abt kor. psycho` Btw if he adds you, better don't add him back.
kor's official friendster account is Jordon_legolas@hotmail.com. Add him if you want to.
I sort of had this big quarrel with hsin today,and my mood totally went down for the entire afternoon.
Dearie sent me home,he managed to cheer me up. But that matter can't get out of my mind,till then,i realised alot of things. alot alot of things. Perhaps it's a blessing in disguise? No more friends,No more sisters but only budd + dear+pigg ` Nobody understands me except for them..really none..How dissappointing it is? I'm such a failure.
Shall turn in anytime. Got to compose songs tml,and also another tuition..`
what's is e most impt element in a friendship/relationship?
basic trust.
Saturday, November 6 [7:43 PM]
i'm still sick. =/ but only sore throat + flu .
mommie took care of me for e whole day (: sweet?
budd threatened to treat me drink ginger tea if i don't get well!. lolss. i hate that drink,it sounds so digusting. where got pple drink ginger de. eeekkk.
friday-
had band practice and of course extra lessons. went to school together with kor + rickson,daddie dropped us at the school gate cause' kor need to get his pass. i sat at the foyer there,and then jess arrived. she let me eat her pocky,she bought alot of snacks to eat in class -.- lolss. went for 1 hr of band,sir asked me to arrange e competition set piece,it's so damn messy..made me so confused -.- went for my amaths class at 9,lessons were all right. hsin pon band!. lolss. she forgot there's band =x then abt 10 lidat,i went back to music room to arrange my scores. left ard 10.4oam,continued my amaths lessons. so much gladdd that i'm able to understand e topic on circular measure and matrices (:
talked to sir abt mengshan thingy,i told him i wanna give up. he asked me not to,and he promised to look into mengshan's problem (: great isn't it. i won't have to worry about her anymore!. sir told bel to arrange a sectional for us. yepps. lolss. i'm gonna improve my flute playing,hope i have the time to improve on it cause' sir told us there will concerts for us. shld i be happy or sad?. having a concert means more practice + stress,cause' choonwei wasn't there to support me and i'm suppose to support yingqi + mengshan. =/
saturday-
today seems a breeze for me,everything passes so fast. I woke up at ard 9plus,went online for a while. went up to study for abt 2hrplus. (: good ryte?!. completed my chinese tys lers,except for e compos. in e afternoon,i went online ,i was editing e other blog but then my internet connection suddenly down so i went to do my hwk. mommie accompanied me then later i fell aslp in her arms (: woke up ard 6 plus and continued using the computer. had crabs for dinner,together with kor + mommie (: hehes.
i miss my dear soo much. ): he's now at jeffrey's hse. =/
there's still lessons on monday and band on friday..another two band meetings on monday and wednesday` what a hectic schedule. -.- bussy weeekk. jess is coming to my hse tml!. for studys..lolss..` hope both of us can concentrate!. yeppss.
mommie took care of me for e whole day (: sweet?
budd threatened to treat me drink ginger tea if i don't get well!. lolss. i hate that drink,it sounds so digusting. where got pple drink ginger de. eeekkk.
friday-
had band practice and of course extra lessons. went to school together with kor + rickson,daddie dropped us at the school gate cause' kor need to get his pass. i sat at the foyer there,and then jess arrived. she let me eat her pocky,she bought alot of snacks to eat in class -.- lolss. went for 1 hr of band,sir asked me to arrange e competition set piece,it's so damn messy..made me so confused -.- went for my amaths class at 9,lessons were all right. hsin pon band!. lolss. she forgot there's band =x then abt 10 lidat,i went back to music room to arrange my scores. left ard 10.4oam,continued my amaths lessons. so much gladdd that i'm able to understand e topic on circular measure and matrices (:
talked to sir abt mengshan thingy,i told him i wanna give up. he asked me not to,and he promised to look into mengshan's problem (: great isn't it. i won't have to worry about her anymore!. sir told bel to arrange a sectional for us. yepps. lolss. i'm gonna improve my flute playing,hope i have the time to improve on it cause' sir told us there will concerts for us. shld i be happy or sad?. having a concert means more practice + stress,cause' choonwei wasn't there to support me and i'm suppose to support yingqi + mengshan. =/
saturday-
today seems a breeze for me,everything passes so fast. I woke up at ard 9plus,went online for a while. went up to study for abt 2hrplus. (: good ryte?!. completed my chinese tys lers,except for e compos. in e afternoon,i went online ,i was editing e other blog but then my internet connection suddenly down so i went to do my hwk. mommie accompanied me then later i fell aslp in her arms (: woke up ard 6 plus and continued using the computer. had crabs for dinner,together with kor + mommie (: hehes.
i miss my dear soo much. ): he's now at jeffrey's hse. =/
there's still lessons on monday and band on friday..another two band meetings on monday and wednesday` what a hectic schedule. -.- bussy weeekk. jess is coming to my hse tml!. for studys..lolss..` hope both of us can concentrate!. yeppss.
Thursday, November 4 [7:44 PM]
blardy hell. i'm down with fever + sore throat + flu again,it always happen after i went under the rain. -.-
So many things happened for the past week,i shan't not mention about it anymore. Dearie and I were fine now,after sorting out things ytd. I don't know whether i'm selfish to make such a decision but I know it's already a mistake to let them keep in contact. I don't want to go through such a torture again,after having a taste of it for the forth time. =/ Maybe you're puzzled about the past two entries,but don't care about it anymore. It's just purely a girl's mood.
Btw,how's the cca concert on friday?. nice?. How's the band performance?. lolss. I was pretty nervous and dishearted that day when bel + jess + mommy + hsin + wen told me about irwin's thingy. I kept my eyes on sir and my band seniors =) lolss. Wanna thank Choonwei for encouraging me,yeahs. He tagged bel's board but not mine. -arghs- After performance,got stuck in school because of bel. So me + jess + hsin had lunch first,before proceeding to hsin's house for a movie. We watched White Chicks there,that show is so damn funny. lolss. =) After that,me + jess + mommy had a nap in hsin's room,while bel + hsin were playing with nail polish. lolss. On saturday,supposed to meet bel + jess at 8.30am. hehes,but i overslept. Took a cabbie down to serangoon mrt station,then meet them. blehss. Travelled all the way down to dhoby ghaut,then walked to starhub centre. after sending bel into the examination hall,jess + me went to mac. We .studied for quite sometime,bel finished his exam at ard 11.30 lidat bahs. So we walked to orchard,saw the singapore idols. =) walked around and took pics,then we went to hsin's house to watch another movie. hehes,we can't find the sec 4 books so we went to her house. lolss. watched the day after tomorrow,freaking nice manx. went off to meet dearie in the evening,saw somethings that i'm not supposed to see. haishx. that fucking msg sparkled another quarrel between us. went to jess house and cried,of cause he sent me there. I was holding back my tears terribly,don't know what i am supposed to do. Played with jess's guinea pigs,then used her laptop before returning home. Went home,went online and then i cried badly again. haishx. These few days when i went back for extra lessons,was damn fucking pissed off when she keep appearing in front of me. I hate her,i really do,ever since last saturday. Even cried when i saw her on tues,damn idiotic. I don't know why i cried over her,but my tears were uncontrollable. emotions overwhelmed me for that day,unable to concentrate at all for that day. =/ geex ,ever since last saturday
Today's lessons started at 10.40am cause' mr tan has a course today so he can't give us lessons =) woke up at 8am when jess sms-ed me that yingqi they all were in school today. -.- I rushed down to school,to see how they were coping. They were told to wash up the music store. lolss. lame lehss`- I walked to mac,to meet justin + weiqi + matt + kevin + joanne. desmond arrived a lil later -.- lols. cause we called him and woke him up. had my lemon lime juice there. yeahs. lolss. chatted and we created this tea specially for desmond. lols. It's so damn digusting when matt acutally spit into it. yuckss. But before we can present it to desmond,the cleaner took it away. lols. so damn lucky`. Justin + Weiqi + Kevin + Matt went to play bball outside school, joanne + me stayed behind to accompany desmond. then walked to the bball court,saw lotsa of 3i peeps there. lols . all wanna late for social studies lesson. We walked into the class late,but mr paul didn't scold us lehss. =) social studies lesson was lil bore,we were eating snacks and mr paul confiscated all of it. -arghss- after lesson,had lunch with hsin before going for band. Was pissed off by mingshan during practice,i'm gonna get a tape recorder and then play for her every practice. -arghs-
Went home with hsin,then was raining heavily when i was on the bus. I reached home a lil drenched,was feeling so cold. Mommie gave me warm water and hugged me. lolss. Then had lunch,mommie fed me lehs. =) lolss. Mommie tucked me in,then i slept all the way till 6. mommie woke me up in a funny manner,lolss. she keep whistling,then when i opened my eyes,she said it's the hamsters. lols. so cute arhs,woke up with a fever. -arghs- so i was like so sick,had dinner with kor. =) now watching singapore idol. then followed by champions` i hate yilin.
Wanna thank all those for showering me with care and concern for e past few days,being there for me and of cause lending me their ears + shoulders for me.
- My sotong sisters, [ jess + bel ] for accompanying me,cheering me up,talking me out..
- My "parents", [ deex + yun ] for cheering me up and lending me your ears.
- My brothers, [ justin + eugene ] for allowing me to vent my anger on them and giving me advices.
- My girlfriends [ emma + steph ], emma for showing me concern and steph a hug after she saw me cryin' =)
- My budd [ ruey shyan ], for accompanying late in the nights when i couldn't slp. and also talking me out of my depression.
- My friends, [ qiujin + baoman ] showing me care. =D
lalalas. Thank God for sending them here,right beside me. Showing me lotsa care and concern whenever i'm down.`~ Great angels of my life.
there's still school tomorrow,will only stop at ard 10nov =/ Nick already booked class chalet,which is on the 16 - 18 dec. But i will only be turning up on the 16 cause' i'm flying to bangkok on the 17th morning. Be back only on the 20th. =) lolss. Band will also be having band camps, but not sure when is it =D
I'll stop here. Gonna start working hard this holidays to prepare for my stressful life next yr. =)
So many things happened for the past week,i shan't not mention about it anymore. Dearie and I were fine now,after sorting out things ytd. I don't know whether i'm selfish to make such a decision but I know it's already a mistake to let them keep in contact. I don't want to go through such a torture again,after having a taste of it for the forth time. =/ Maybe you're puzzled about the past two entries,but don't care about it anymore. It's just purely a girl's mood.
Btw,how's the cca concert on friday?. nice?. How's the band performance?. lolss. I was pretty nervous and dishearted that day when bel + jess + mommy + hsin + wen told me about irwin's thingy. I kept my eyes on sir and my band seniors =) lolss. Wanna thank Choonwei for encouraging me,yeahs. He tagged bel's board but not mine. -arghs- After performance,got stuck in school because of bel. So me + jess + hsin had lunch first,before proceeding to hsin's house for a movie. We watched White Chicks there,that show is so damn funny. lolss. =) After that,me + jess + mommy had a nap in hsin's room,while bel + hsin were playing with nail polish. lolss. On saturday,supposed to meet bel + jess at 8.30am. hehes,but i overslept. Took a cabbie down to serangoon mrt station,then meet them. blehss. Travelled all the way down to dhoby ghaut,then walked to starhub centre. after sending bel into the examination hall,jess + me went to mac. We .studied for quite sometime,bel finished his exam at ard 11.30 lidat bahs. So we walked to orchard,saw the singapore idols. =) walked around and took pics,then we went to hsin's house to watch another movie. hehes,we can't find the sec 4 books so we went to her house. lolss. watched the day after tomorrow,freaking nice manx. went off to meet dearie in the evening,saw somethings that i'm not supposed to see. haishx. that fucking msg sparkled another quarrel between us. went to jess house and cried,of cause he sent me there. I was holding back my tears terribly,don't know what i am supposed to do. Played with jess's guinea pigs,then used her laptop before returning home. Went home,went online and then i cried badly again. haishx. These few days when i went back for extra lessons,was damn fucking pissed off when she keep appearing in front of me. I hate her,i really do,ever since last saturday. Even cried when i saw her on tues,damn idiotic. I don't know why i cried over her,but my tears were uncontrollable. emotions overwhelmed me for that day,unable to concentrate at all for that day. =/ geex ,ever since last saturday
Today's lessons started at 10.40am cause' mr tan has a course today so he can't give us lessons =) woke up at 8am when jess sms-ed me that yingqi they all were in school today. -.- I rushed down to school,to see how they were coping. They were told to wash up the music store. lolss. lame lehss`- I walked to mac,to meet justin + weiqi + matt + kevin + joanne. desmond arrived a lil later -.- lols. cause we called him and woke him up. had my lemon lime juice there. yeahs. lolss. chatted and we created this tea specially for desmond. lols. It's so damn digusting when matt acutally spit into it. yuckss. But before we can present it to desmond,the cleaner took it away. lols. so damn lucky`. Justin + Weiqi + Kevin + Matt went to play bball outside school, joanne + me stayed behind to accompany desmond. then walked to the bball court,saw lotsa of 3i peeps there. lols . all wanna late for social studies lesson. We walked into the class late,but mr paul didn't scold us lehss. =) social studies lesson was lil bore,we were eating snacks and mr paul confiscated all of it. -arghss- after lesson,had lunch with hsin before going for band. Was pissed off by mingshan during practice,i'm gonna get a tape recorder and then play for her every practice. -arghs-
Went home with hsin,then was raining heavily when i was on the bus. I reached home a lil drenched,was feeling so cold. Mommie gave me warm water and hugged me. lolss. Then had lunch,mommie fed me lehs. =) lolss. Mommie tucked me in,then i slept all the way till 6. mommie woke me up in a funny manner,lolss. she keep whistling,then when i opened my eyes,she said it's the hamsters. lols. so cute arhs,woke up with a fever. -arghs- so i was like so sick,had dinner with kor. =) now watching singapore idol. then followed by champions` i hate yilin.
Wanna thank all those for showering me with care and concern for e past few days,being there for me and of cause lending me their ears + shoulders for me.
- My sotong sisters, [ jess + bel ] for accompanying me,cheering me up,talking me out..
- My "parents", [ deex + yun ] for cheering me up and lending me your ears.
- My brothers, [ justin + eugene ] for allowing me to vent my anger on them and giving me advices.
- My girlfriends [ emma + steph ], emma for showing me concern and steph a hug after she saw me cryin' =)
- My budd [ ruey shyan ], for accompanying late in the nights when i couldn't slp. and also talking me out of my depression.
- My friends, [ qiujin + baoman ] showing me care. =D
lalalas. Thank God for sending them here,right beside me. Showing me lotsa care and concern whenever i'm down.`~ Great angels of my life.
there's still school tomorrow,will only stop at ard 10nov =/ Nick already booked class chalet,which is on the 16 - 18 dec. But i will only be turning up on the 16 cause' i'm flying to bangkok on the 17th morning. Be back only on the 20th. =) lolss. Band will also be having band camps, but not sure when is it =D
I'll stop here. Gonna start working hard this holidays to prepare for my stressful life next yr. =)
Monday, November 1 [4:18 PM]
i hate myself larhs.*
fuck!!!
haish.
i dunno what i'm thinkin'.
i dunno what i shld do.
i dunno what i can do.
i dunno what i am supposed to do.
why is she causin' us to quarrel times and agn?
why is she comin' in between us?
why must she be the one?
why must she like him?
why must she be his godsister?
why can't she just stop comin' into our lives!!!!
why must she send him such a msg?!.
she said she has her life and we have our life. but yet why she is still interfering into our life?!
he said both of us are tired. i know. but can't he just stop makin' me so jealous. i'm gettin' hurt through all these jealousy going on.
i can't control my feelings.
you think it's all right for her to send such a msg to you,then i shall make others send that to me. see how you feel. do you actually understand what i'm going through now?!
wo de xin hao tong hao tong. ni ming bai marx?!. all you do is to scold me. ask me what i want.?! what i want is unreachable. i want a sense of secure from you!. can you give me that?!.
i want to think it this way cause' i can't think of other ways to think?!.
i'm angry. so are you.
you admitted that you are angry because i'm jealous or i din tell you anything so you din msg me for the entire day.
i dunno what u are thinking. i really dunno.
nobody understands what i'm feeling now and going through...NOBODY!
my jiemuis + di's + friends cheered me up. asked me to move on and believe you.
others din say any thing to me. but i just believed my own eyes!. i saw that msg kaes.
fine.
i'm gonna be a FLIRT from now onwards.!!
i'm gonna breakdown lers. i can't concentrate. i can't do anything.
can just someone help me.?!
i dun wan her to snatch you away.
I DUN WAN!.
can someone just help me?..............!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
dear. i'm sorryx.
fuck!!!
haish.
i dunno what i'm thinkin'.
i dunno what i shld do.
i dunno what i can do.
i dunno what i am supposed to do.
why is she causin' us to quarrel times and agn?
why is she comin' in between us?
why must she be the one?
why must she like him?
why must she be his godsister?
why can't she just stop comin' into our lives!!!!
why must she send him such a msg?!.
she said she has her life and we have our life. but yet why she is still interfering into our life?!
he said both of us are tired. i know. but can't he just stop makin' me so jealous. i'm gettin' hurt through all these jealousy going on.
i can't control my feelings.
you think it's all right for her to send such a msg to you,then i shall make others send that to me. see how you feel. do you actually understand what i'm going through now?!
wo de xin hao tong hao tong. ni ming bai marx?!. all you do is to scold me. ask me what i want.?! what i want is unreachable. i want a sense of secure from you!. can you give me that?!.
i want to think it this way cause' i can't think of other ways to think?!.
i'm angry. so are you.
you admitted that you are angry because i'm jealous or i din tell you anything so you din msg me for the entire day.
i dunno what u are thinking. i really dunno.
nobody understands what i'm feeling now and going through...NOBODY!
my jiemuis + di's + friends cheered me up. asked me to move on and believe you.
others din say any thing to me. but i just believed my own eyes!. i saw that msg kaes.
fine.
i'm gonna be a FLIRT from now onwards.!!
i'm gonna breakdown lers. i can't concentrate. i can't do anything.
can just someone help me.?!
i dun wan her to snatch you away.
I DUN WAN!.
can someone just help me?..............!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
dear. i'm sorryx.
Tuesday, October 26 [9:22 PM]
haish.
my voice is unheard. why!.
i'm not the mood to do anything anything for no use.
i hate myself so much. why am i such a useless person?!.
haish.
today is dearie + dardar's de 2nd month. times really files.
my class got one retain. saddenx.-`
i'm not going to collapse my pure sciences. i'll thrive harder.`
i really hate myself.
why is it so?!.
i wanna give everything up.
i wanna die.
haishx.!
my voice is unheard. why!.
i'm not the mood to do anything anything for no use.
i hate myself so much. why am i such a useless person?!.
haish.
today is dearie + dardar's de 2nd month. times really files.
my class got one retain. saddenx.-`
i'm not going to collapse my pure sciences. i'll thrive harder.`
i really hate myself.
why is it so?!.
i wanna give everything up.
i wanna die.
haishx.!